This post came out of the desire to write another post. I was trying to combine them but it was getting rather epic and unfocused. This post will also, hopefully, help me to talk about my helens with people which is something I find hugely helpful.
I think I’ve mentioned my imaginary Helens on here before but I can’t find the post and I don’t think I went into much detail. Essentially, whilst I was in therapy, I “found” a younger version of myself and we worked with her around some stuff. Then along came a big sister character followed by a maternal, matriarchal figure, Mana. Then my inner warrior, who was incredibly burnt out, made herself aware to me but didn’t want to see me because I had overused her. This was the chariot. After therapy, I also found an older younger version called Hennie and she has a cat called Charlie.
I’ve been doing a lot of work with them on a one to one basis recently and I feel I have a lot stronger sense of Little Helen, Big Sister and Hennie. But the Chariot and Mana still feel a bit distanced. As I said, the chariot burnt out in terms of fighting. This was the result of a long time of trying to get a house, trying to get a wheelchair, trying to get mental health support, trying to get work to become accessible and so on.
Each helen has a tarot card I associate with her and this has been helpful in terms of getting to know them and letting them speak through tarot. The main reason for this post is just to give some background before I post about the chariot. I tried writing it just for me and her as a way of getting to know her better but I do write more cohesively and coherently if it’s going on my blog…
Whilst my post will be deeply personal, it will also touch on elements of the relevant card and archetypes which I hope will be relatable to most people. Even if you don’t have an imaginary helen in your head, you probably have a vague sense of an inner warrior or an inner child etc.
I know this is a very specific way of approaching personal development, self care etc but it really works for me. I’d be very interested to know if anyone else does anything similar. It all revealed itself very organically and in a really empowering way. And continues to do so. Like any relationship, it is necessary for me to slowly get to know them, to let them reveal what they are ready to share when they are ready.
Nothing I do with my helens is fully conscious. For example, Hennie was struggling a lot to identify her needs, let alone try and get help meeting them. Then one day I checked in with my house of helens and charlie cat had wandered into her life. This is proving to be a really good way of helping her understand that it is ok to get your needs met, helping her identify charlie cat’s needs and hence her own and helping her learn how to ask for help. If I had consciously sat down and tried to plan that, it wouldn’t have worked. The same goes for the initial concept. Had someone, a month before, told me I’d be working with imaginary helens as part of my therapy, I wouldn’t have taken them seriously… I was really lucky that my excellent therapist went along on the journey with me, not pushing me into it and not pulling me away from it.