Please see the intro post first! You may also be interested in my post about how I work with my house of helens. If this is something you’d like to know more about, the approach I have developed is similar to psychosynthesis.
Whilst this post is a deeply personal reflection on my inner chariot, I am sharing it as some of this will be useful for tarot readers and for those of you who aren’t, it might provide some thinking points for reflecting on your own inner warrior.
“I know building a relationship with my inner warrior is important for me to work on. She is confident and surefooted. I feel I can trust her judgement and that it will be clear”
– Me, 2016
“Warrior of the heart, deeply rooted in love and fiery passion for life. She is aligned with truth; she fiercely rips away your masks and pretences; that which is not in service to love is exposed and brought into question. She is wide awake, totally alive and brings fire medicine, through our bodies, to awaken us to the present moment and the authentic action needed to realign us with our own truth and spirit. She has been demonised by the patriarchy which lives inside us all and so, to some, she may induce fear and loathing: if we are not safe with our own power then her power threatens us. There is truth in her demonisation because to suppress any energy so totally will only cause it to become distorted, like a ‘demon’ who wants attention and healing to be restored into balance. We might get burnt a few times while we tame our dragons but, if we lock them in a cage, they might just burn the whole house down.”
– Tabitha Chambers
The Chariot is associated with Cancer, the crab, and as such carries with her some of the traits of that sign. In particular, and important to me, is the dual aspect of her. She has a hard, tough shell which she shows the world but inside that she is vulnerable and loving and emotional. She is a fighter, appearing emotionless and fierce. She is gentle and her heart overflows with feelings and yet these are pushed down so she can fight on and on until she burns out. She is intense and courageous and protective. The walls she puts up to go to battle can become permanent if she is not careful. Remember to put down the shield from time to time, you cannot fight well if your arms are tired.
She is a warrior, a campaigner, an advocate, a world changer. She is a powerful, potent, empowered creature who owns her sexuality. She is wild, courageous and wilful. She pushes against injustice and uses her strength to help others.
She needs to remind us over and over: Do not lose yourself in your passion for helping others. And be cautious about over helping or over nurturing. She means well but the Chariot is prone to stiffling, she feels it is easier to do the work herself, she wants to help but in doing the work for others, she robs them of the chance to develop those skills. Empower but don’t takeover. Run like the wild horse you are, but don’t drag others along with you. They will journey if they decide it is right for them, and if they do, it has to be in their own time. Take time to understand whether you run from something or toward something. Whilst you are filled with forward focused momentum there is still time to pause.
She is determined and single minded and this can lead to a blinkered view of things. Her intense focus on the task at hand can cause her to lose touch of the other things she values. This can include neglecting her personal relationships which she doesn’t intend to do but her drive overpowers her and her cause is all she can think of. This is another reason she is vulnerable to burning out.
She knows she must understand herself and explore herself before she can know and explore the world. Until she has done this self development, she cannot be her most powerful when it comes to changing the world. And she thrives on these focuses, self and world. Without this direction, her overflowing power becomes something that controls her rather than her controlling it. Without a project, she loses her sense of self, her empowered nature and becomes impatient and frustrated and lashes out at those around her.
She goes into battle for her chosen causes so that she can bring love to others. She is a war goddess and she is a goddess of love. She holds both, intertwined. If you look at the Rider Waite Smith tarot card, you see the charioteer is steering two horses, perhaps one is war and the other love? Other explanations have suggested one is the inner self and one the outer self which ties in neatly with the cancer metaphor. Similarly for the conscious and subconscious minds.
“This is not a warrior of the fearless kind but rather a deeper feminine warrior who feels fear and can meet it. She is able to experience all emotions in their purest form, bringing them through her heart in service to love, no matter how difficult. Fire burns in her psyche, aiding courage and bringing clarity to her thoughts, actions and words – she knows when to say yes or no, defining and protecting her boundaries, creating a safe structure to support the phases to come. Warrior woman is responsible, she keeps her commitments, she creates life for us based on freedom of choice, she stops us from taking and enduring other people’s nonsense, she gives voice to our truths and she connects us to the earth through her pure wild nature.”
– She Who Knows
If we look at her in context, she follows the lovers card. Where the lovers are pulled by their emotions, their lusts and their desires like adolescents in the midst of hormones, the chariot controls her emotions. Controls instead of being controlled by. But after the Chariot comes the strength card. Strength is neither controlling nor controlled by its emotions. He is in harmony with them. He feels them and releases them. He is the mature figure in emotional development. We must remember that controlling our emotions is not the final stage of our journey.
Many of the traits of my imaginary chariot are akin to those found in the wild unknown animal spirit horse card. A card which closely resembles the chariot card. Like the horse, my chariot cannot be tamed. She cannot be controlled. She will help me and she will work with me but she will not work for me.