“But I’m not creative…”

Firstly, if I can do it, so can you.

Secondly, art journaling is amazing!

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Look at all those intriguing pages!

Art journaling really helps my mental health but I’ve had to really adapt my art journaling techniques and expectations as my hands are in a lot of pain and i struggle with fine motor skills. It’s been, and continues to be, a journey of trial and error, discovery and adaptations. Because of those limitations, my journaling has become more precious, more thoughtful and a slower process (in a good way). I have ended up adding a lot of depth to my pages because I can only do a little bit of a page at a time and this also provides space for reflection between layers. I definitely feel that some of my better pages have arisen because of my limitations.  In fact my latest journal charts my journey from “argh I can’t hold a pen” to “oh wait, if I do this very slowly, with lots of breaks, using layers and the right techniques I can still do this”. It’s been, and continues to be, a lot of trial and error. What I can do one day is not the same as another day.

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Pre 2015

I think learning to work with my limitations, not against them, has made art journaling a worthwhile experience for me in itself although it is so much more than that. I do feel if I can do it then so can almost everyone, no excuses!

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2015

Technique wise, I do a bit of collaging, use photos I’ve taken, splash paint around, use found objects, stencils, inks etc. I can’t hold most pens anymore so words come from print outs, magazines, stickers etc. Again, working within that limitation makes it easier in some ways – having the world as your oyster, or the alphabet as your seahorse (or whatever is appropriate there) can be overwhelming to the point of freezing you. I try to journal something that comes out of the day which means I’m more tuned in to what’s going on round me. For example when I am out I might be looking for found objects such as feathers or if a particular quote resonates, I’ll pay more attention and make a note of it. It’s paying attention in a deeper way – if I wasn’t journaling, I’d miss the feather, I’d hear the quote and think yeah that sounds great but then it’d slip away from me.

What I can do varies from day to day.  Some days I just place cues; feathers, petals, a word ripped of a leaflet. These hold the place for me so i can return at another time when I am able to take the cue and roll with it. It might be a few days, it might be a few weeks but those cues fester in the back of my mind until I have time, have spoons or have a feeling about what the first or next step is.  I say feeling, I don’t generally have an image of what I’m wanting, it is much more something I feel my way through. I will look through my stash and see what speaks to me. I will move things around on the page. Or just get stuck in adding colour and seeing what happens.

Tools I have found I can use
  • Ink and ink pads (but not stamps, I can’t seem to use them without lots of pain so I use ink pads with stencils instead)
  • Stencils
  • Acrylics
  • Chalk or soft pastels – these are so gentle and a great way of getting a bit of colour for not much effort
  • Chunky handled brushes
  • Glue tape – I find this easier than a glue stick because it requires less pressure and it sticks much better. I find it better than pva because that involves holding a paint brush.
  • Paper – a variety of colours, craft paper, wall paper, wrapping paper, junk mail, any kind of paper will do! If you like paper, check out flow magazine
  • Photos
  • Other bits and pieces – tiny bits of ribbon, buttons, fabric, words ripped out of things…

Anyway, I’ll stop there because I could talk, or write, for hours about it.  If anyone has any questions or comments, please add them.  I’d love to know what other people are up to, especially other people who have difficulties with their hands as well.

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Moments

Saturday

Sitting under a tree in Museum Gardens writing poetry with @InTheLighthouse.

The history you’ve seen

Permanent spectator. Mute

Yet sharing wisdom

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Weary burdens have

Twisted and scarred and yet fresh

Leaves show strength and fight

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Arms reach out, tracing

Paths explored in the fruitful

Quest for light and life.

Sunday

Overhead on a walk:

“You keep chasing me but you’ll never catch me”

“I know”

“Why do you do it?”

“Because it’s fun”

When do you last do something just because it’s fun?

Monday

Watching a video message from a friend on the other side of the world and sharing cups of tea with friends who feel like family.

Wednesday

Noticing words.  The difference between “put to bed” and “put to sleep” (an important difference if you happen to be talking about people’s children…). Words which capture something very specific. Words to use more often. Words to inspire.

Moments

Inspired by @iamkateevens, I am trying to recognise moments as they happen.  Whether that’s moments where something has gone well, feels good, I notice something beautiful etc.  The focus is about keeping myself in the now.  Paying attention to the positive things, the glimmers of light in the midst of depression.

So on Wednesday, I had a work meeting which require me to take control of a situation and use persuasion, build relationships and employ communication skills to get someone on board with our approach.  I managed this and in doing so felt like I was taking on the team leader role (new job which started officially at the beginning of the month).

This morning I was laying in bed with my kindle noticing the birds tweeting outside and the hum of their wings as they flew past the window.